As you ponder the thought that life doesn't last forever, tears fill your eyes, drop after drop, your reminded of every person that you have ever loved. You start questioning if there are any of them that you need to reconcile with or if you have told any of them that you loved them lately.
Eagerly you rush to your phone as you realize that there has been so many words unspoken, so many apologies never given, and so much forgiveness never received. As panic breaches the wall of your soul, you start dialing the first number that comes to mind. "Please pick up. Please pick up." you say to your self. As the reality that has been aloft for so long invades your entire being, your heart is over turned with all the words that have to be said.
There may never be a tomorrow.
As the phone rings, the words come pouring in. "I'm sorry for what I said." "I never meant to hurt you." "My life hasn't been the same without you."
Suddenly you hear "Hello?"
Tears flooding, chocking, with a gasp for air you answer "Hello..." sniffle.
They reply "Sis? Is that you?"
You answer "Ya" sniffle.
They reply "What's wrong? Its been 10 years. Are you okay?"
You answer "I am sorry. I'm sorry for how I treated you. I never meant to hurt you. I should of never said what I said. I could never bring myself to face you. So I avoided you instead. Oh how I have missed you. My life hasn't been the same without you. I'm sorry. Will you forgive me? I love you..."
All you can hear is sobs. 10 years worth of pain, sorrow, and tears.
You start crying all over again.
You say to yourself "Why. Why did I put her through all these years? I was so afraid that my life would never been the same if I reconciled. Guess what I was right. It hasn't been the same. All I got in return, is missing out on her life. Why?"
Through the tears you hear, "I forgive you."
Two lives mended by the power of forgiveness.
Life is short.
Are we as human kind making the most of every moment?
Are we doing what matters?
Are we loving like there is no tomorrow?
I know in my own life I have made scaring mistakes. So many times I have hurt the ones I love by not thinking before speaking. So many regrets my soul bares. Although all of that is oh so true, there is one pro-founding truth that gives me hope, it is never to late to say your sorry.
Where ever your at today, I ask that you think about, just think about who's life you might change by overcoming the fear of rejection and either give the long in waiting apology or receive the apology that has been given.
We have one life to live. Today is the only day we have been given. Tomorrow may never come.
Love like there is no tomorrow and live live today.
Signed:
The thoughts of a searching heart.
